Introduction of Why I Wrote the Letter

After the death of our first grandchild, I needed a way to cope with Conner’s death (the grandchild).  I started writing a letter to him.  At first, I wrote a short letter to Conner that was read at his funeral.  After the funeral, I felt so empty inside.   I didn’t know what to do with the feelings I was having inside.  The feelings are so private and real.  So one early morning I sat down and started writing Conner a letter about what happened the day he was born and all the events that followed.  Needless to say, I did not think this letter would continue for two more years.   Many more tragedies followed in the next two years after Conner’s death.  By writing down my thoughts and feelings, this was my only way of coping.  It seemed to give me strength to go on. 

I never had any intention of ever publishing this letter.  I didn’t tell anyone that this letter even existed. 

God then started speaking to me.  He told me to publish the letter so that others may be helped through our tragedies.  I told God I just couldn’t do it.  I would have to share too many private and painful thoughts.  But God is patient and good and He just kept nudging me.  Finally, I told my family about the letter and asked them to read it.  I asked them if it was okay for me to publish the letter so that maybe others could be helped.  After all, many of their emotions were in the book too and I needed their permission.  They all gave me their blessings. 

After publishing the book and people started reading my book, many notes, phone calls and one-on-one thank you came forth.  I was amazed and humbled.  By following God’s calling, these notes became a great blessing to me.   God knew way in advance that I would be blessed if I published my book and blessed I have been!   Please see Testimonies.  I have included just a few of the many notes of encouragement I have received.